Confession!!!

Lyn xtau la berharga lagi ke x penantian Lyn pada Fahmi tp apappun Lyn tetap setia menanti dirinya kerana itula janji Lyn pada dirinya.Ya Allah....Lyn benar-benar merindui insan yang bernama Fahmi.Hanya hati ini yang tau betapa seksanya menghitung hari dia telah melangkah pergi.Bodoh ke diri ini menanti pada sesuatu yang tidak pasti?Apa daya Lyn,Ya Allah?Lyn hanya mampu berdoa dan redha dengan segalanya.Rupa-rupanya begitu sukar untuk melepaskan seseorg pergi dari hidup kita.Lyn yakin Fahmi faham perasaan Lyn.Lyn tau semua ni brlaku,pasti ada hikmah...Mungkin penantian Lyn ni akan mengecewakan diri ni tapi andai ia terjadi,Lyn redha je.Sepahit mana pun suatu kenyataan itu,Lyn yakin ia pengajaran yg sgt bererti bagi kita.

28/7/2010

I still dun get any news from u since u leave.I guess u muz be bz.Well,u kan kena adapt to the new place.I miss u,Fam.Byk things yang happen kat my life recently...Sampai I rasa mcm I dh x de ruang nk breath.Ntah la...I wish things could juz slow down...

26/7/2010

Recently I bz skit.Assignment dtg melanda dgn byk.HahaWat to do?I got a new lover that keep us connected.Mama bru belikan laz nite.Ysterday,I really have fun after so long.Kitaorg buat trip ke penang.Round the whole penang island.It was fun but so tiring.

24/7/2010

At last arini I dh ada time nk dgr ur favourite song.So sad the song YOU by Kazami.I read a novel yesterday.Is called Sejujur Hatimu.In that book ada love quotes yang berbunyi... When autumn comes,all the leaves will fall and leave behind all sad stories.When the first ray of spring arrives,carpet of daisies will shine and rosebud will start to bloom…giving soul a fresh and new hope…
Hari ni I bz tp my mind still can't forget u.I on fb arini,wishing u to reply my msg but so sad,u din.U bz I guess.I nampak bulan tp kabur je.I miss u a lot my dear.Td masa I baca all ur previous sms,I cry...I tau bukan niat u nk leave macam tu.

23/7/10

Lyn x gi skola hari ni.Byk assignment nak kena settle.I woke in the morning,I turn on the radio,diaorg play lagu Baby-Justin Bieber.My mind trus tringat kat becoz ur caller ringtone.Oh Gosh I miss u like crazy.Lyn masih x de masa nak gi dgr ur favourite song.I will listen as soon as possible.Fmi,ok ke ur life kat sana?Can u adapt to the place?I asked pun bknnya dapat dgr suara u.As Lyn pernah gtau kat Fmi,klau Fmi rasa mcm ada angin,tu maknanya,Lyn minta tolong angin untuk kirim salam rindu kat Fmi.Cikgu teater Lyn asked me to see my tapak tangan,dia kata adanya ruang antara jari-jari kita is becoz nanti ruang itu akan dipenuhi oleh jari org yg kita syg.Lyn rasa apa yg cikgu kata tu ada logiknya.My bff,bagi Lyn one stalk of rose masa practice td.I was surprised wif that flower.Dia kata,dia bagi bunga ni becoz bunga tu akan wakilkan Fmi tgk Lyn practice teater.Funny rite?

22/7/2010

I created a blog for u today.I dun wanna reveal to u yet.Soon,I will.Juz now I went to ur fb profile.Your status is married…I was slightly sad but I let it go.Who am I wanna noe everything about u,ryte?Masa practice teater,Lyn try to give my best becoz Fmi pernah kata u hope to watch it.The front part dh settle,tinggal around 7 scene then everything is ready to be perform.Syg skali Fmi x de kat sini,klau x mesti dapat agk dari mana Lyn dpt idea untuk teater ni.After pementasan teater ni dh settle,u will get to noe the story of Menanti di kala Cahaya Bulan Menyinar.

21/7/2010

Sukarnya nk lelap mata.Dh x larat nak pujuk mata ni untuk tido.I feel sumthing is missing and I noe is u.Is the second day since u left.I haven’t got used to it yet.I feel like I lost support masa I was on the stage juz now.Seriously I admit,there’s never been a guy that make me feel this way.NEVER till I met u.Frens dari PLKN ajak Lyn kuar,I was thinking kalau u ada mesti best.Kita x pernah kuar together since PLKN tamat.Eventhough kita x jumpa kat luar but Lyn skit pun x rasa yg Lyn jauh dari Fmi.Juz now Lyn hantar papa ke airport.Great…Dua-dua kaum adam yg Lyn syg leave Lyn.Bla Lyn step in je kat airport,Lyn trus tringatkan Fmi.I realized I gotta accept that u have left.Mama and papa mcm fham je perasaan Lyn so mama biar je Lyn melayan perasaan Lyn.

20/7/2010

At last you have left me.Masa Fmi gtau yang Fmi dh nak pergi,Lyn rasa macam nak lari gi airport je.Lyn realized u leave for ur future.Lyn harap sangat Fmi berjaya.Fmi,Lyn harap sgt u will never change into sumone else.Lyn yakin Fmi akan dapat jaga diri baik-baik.Allah akan bersama Fmi all the time.Fmi,maafkan Lyn if Lyn banyak menyusahkan Fmi sepanjang persahabatan kita.Sukarnya nk believe that u actually have left.Tiada lagi usikan Fam…When I was alone,who will accompany me?Who will make laugh as u did?I feel like tonite was really a long nite.Hujan turun rintik-rintik macam fham je dgn perasaan Lyn ketika ni.I noe is useless to cry but I can’t hide my pain.I never expect that u will call me before u leave.How touch am I,u noe?Lyn terpaksa act macam Lyn happy padahal only God noe betapa pedihnya hati ni.Masa nak end the conversation,u said u syg i.Fmi tau x Lyn tunggu ayat tu kuar dari mulut Fmi dh punya lama.Lyn harap sgt u meant the syg but I noe is impossible.Fmi,I miss u a lot.

19/7/2010

Today u told me that u r leaving tmrw.Tears juz rolled down easily when I read ur msg.Berat benar hati Lyn nak tgk Fmi pergi macam tu je.Ni dh second time Fmi pergi cmtu je dari Lyn.Lyn sedar Lyn xpenting pada Fmi.Lyn realized Lyn x dapat Fmi sygkan Lyn or care for Lyn.No matter what,Lyn tetap sygkan Fmi.Td Lyn tanya Fmi,will u forget me?Fmi ckap,No sebab kan ada bulan.Lyn kata kalau x de bulan maksudnya Fmi x ingat kat Lyn la.Fmi said,bintang kan ada.Actually.is hard for me to let u go and to forget u.Lyn akan rindukan Fmi yang x abis-abis usik Lyn.Fmi yang slalu temankan Lyn di kala Lyn memerlukan teman.Fmi slalu concern psal Lyn.Lyn happy sgt bla Fmi gtau Lyn yang ur family and frens tau pasal Lyn.Rasa mcm Lyn dkat dgn Fmi.I can’t imagine when u r no longer here wif me.

Is for u...

Fam,blog ni khas for u...I did this becoz I rasa macam ni adalah privacy skit.I miss u alot.